May 7, 2008 A Brief Absence

I’ve been sick and incommunicado.  Ah, well.  I’m back.  I’ll be gone next week –in Cape Cod.  Just thought I’d catch up.

Being in the hospital –entirely my stupidity – I have to look at the vcalue I got from it.  Most important, I see my most fundamental mind game:  “this doesn’t matter to me.”   I give great, great coaching.  But do I pay attention to myself?  Why should I?  This doesn’t matter to me.

I went for a walk in the hospital and I borrowed their socks.  They have grips on the bottom and they’re grey on top.  I put them on and had never seen grippers before; I thought they were decorative.  So I carefully turned them upside down.  A nurse told me it was backwards.  And I noticed how often we ALL do that – Do exactly the opposit e, thinking —no knowing — we’re doing it right.

Anyhow, a hospital is not a fit place for sick people.  They are kind and loving and do the best they can, but they really don’t have a mindset of health; they have a mindset of medicine.  They don’t have the slightest understanding of nutrition – You can’t get whole grain anything; only white rice, dot dot dot.  But they eventually get you out and it will only take a few deays for me to re-learn how tro heal myself.  This time not succumbing to “I know better; it doesn’t matter to me.”

April 18, 2008 Exercise ———–michael lipp

Went to see my chiropractor last night.  I’m down to 168 -  2+ years ago I started at 245.  I can now see myself at 160 – even less.  I have to buy new clothes again.  Also looking at how I exercise.  Taking Camron for daily walks is actually sufficient.  I like to walk; looking forward to exploring all the walking tours on the Cape.

Haven’t written a  lot here – because I’m writing a lo all over.  Really pointing to the teleseminar I’m giving in 12 days.  And the Symposium I’m participating in a week from tomorrow.  I love the possibility of turning people on to new futures.  My commitment is to a new future for all of us – or environmental sustainability, to spiritual fulfillment and o ocial justice.

March 12, 2008 Self-Reflection

Finished rereading a classic mystery by one of my favorite authors, Frederic Brown (acknowledged master of both mystery and science fiction, and the unequalled genius of the short, short story [like, the last human on earth was alone in his room.  There was a knock on the door.].)  At any rate one finds great quotes in unexpected places.  This is fromThe Fabulous Clipjoint:

“That’s a hell of a view,” I told him.

“That’s what I meant.  When you look out of a window, when you look at anything, you know what you’re seeing?  Yourself.  A thing can look beautiful or romantic or inspiring only if the beauty or romance or inspiration is inside you.  What you see is inside your head.”

This is not casual.  Because, intimately, there are things I don’t like, I judge… I want and don’t express.  Globally — my god.  Bush??  War?? Hunger??  the planet???  Unfortuantely, in the Yin Yang of life, I can’t only accept one end.  It’s always all there.

So I embrace the opposite ends of my commitments, not resisting them, not rejecting them but speaking for my stand and for my stand and for my stand, which is an environmentally sustainable, spiritually fulfilling and socially just world for all of us.

March 6, 2008 Sleepy

I have been in the habit of eating my way through Whole Foods whenever I shop there, at least once a week.  But now I’m on this anti-asthma homeopathic regimen.  I can’t eat anything they serve until I get over the hump.  Yesterday I decided I was fine.  I wasn’t.  So I precipitated another attack.  I obviously had no one to blame except myself.  The context I’ve created is that I’m committed to my growth (also again decided to listen to Nancy – who was unable to stop me.)

sheesh

March 2,2008 Titles

The hardest part about writing a daily journal is coming up with unique titles.  I mean I can always come up with something to write about, but labrling it… I dunno.

Actually I should call this chamomile.  Let me explain.  When you’re going through a homeopathic treatment (which I am, for asthma) there are certain substances which are antidotes, that will totally negate the treatmint.  These are chamomile, mint and tea tree oil.

Seems easy to avoid.  I don’t drink that herbal tea, I can use Tom’s Straeberry toothpaste and I have no idea what tea tree oil is, but I won’t use it.  Sounds easy.  Then I took a shower, washed my hair and when I got out to shave, I had an asthma episode.  Turns out the shampoo had chamomile, then I found that most herbal shampoos have it (I now use Mane and Tail).. I searched further.  Laundry detergents, so when I wash my clothes I’m antidoting; many cleaning products, Murphy Oil Soap.  My God, I’m surrounded by the fucking stuff.

So this weekend, we washed EVERYTHING in our house.  Everything.  It has so far taken 2 1/2 days…Nancy does most of it; she’s exhausted.  But we’re clean.  My asthma is going, going, almost gone.  So are her chronic headaches.  And then I’ll work on my eyes.  And, oh yes, We’ve each probably dropped around 10 pounds.

February 27, 2008 Strangenesses

Just want to talk about some strange things that happen (not really twighlight zone stuff)

First – report on my asthma healing process) — I am clearly getting healthier.  My voice has regained timber.  My nose is clearing up:  I;m breathing through both nostrils.  And I’ve had more asthma atttacks these last few weeks than I’ve had in years.  I’ve begun to understand – layers of medicinal protection are being stripped away and I’m feeling the benefits and suffering the consequences.  The latter will last until the reversal, the building of healthy tissues occurs.  Meanwhile, I’m losing weight, tooo,

Second -I had a conference call last night.  Three of us were on, but only 2 of us spoke.  The third guy kept hearing that he was the only one on the call.  Don’t know why or how to handle it.

Thjird – I can’t remember; guess it wasn’t so strange.

February 20, 2008 Whelmed

I’m committed to mastering Life 2.0, but I’m not overwhelmed at the prospect, just whelmed.  My daughter Sunny keeps telling me that she’s awed by the fact that I keep learning and growing when I’m 71,  I just think that’s the point of living; I don’t expect to ever stop until, of course, I stop.

What’s Life 2.0? I’m more actively causing, participating, playing, contributing.  I am my avatar (who else’s should I be?) The circumstances of our lives seem to push us around.  We seem to be pawns in life’s game or leaves in an autumn wind.  But we’re always cause in our own lives.  I am;  it’s just a matter of saying so even when other explanations are possible.  It’s only a matter of who writes the history books.

On my asthma:  Last night I slept with my mouth closed for the first time in many years.  And when I meditated this morning I was able to brethe through my nose – for the first time!

L

February 19, 2008 More on Curing Asthma

I believe this homeopathy cure will work.  That is probably an essential step in getting it to work -  probably true for anything that works for us (Law of Attraction) whether we know it or not.

It’s funny that I say this after the  most difficult asthma days I’ve had in months.  But I am now tasting food I haven’t really tasted in years and smelling things I haven’t been aware of in years.  My onion-like body is peeling away layers an layers of medication imposed insensitivity.  I’ve also been taking low doses of steroids for years (now a heavily advertised asthma ‘cure’ called Advair) so I’ve been slowly robbing my own immune system of power.

It’s clear that this process of stripping layers and then rebuilding the stregth of what’s naturally there will take some time.  So the self-imposeed dietary restrictions are only temporary.  Still, there are certain foods I miss and will continue to miss.  Too bad.  A very small price to pay for no asthma and no medications.  Very small. 

My wife has suffered from chronic headaches, maybe from age 12 on.  She had been addicted to Excedrin.  So she’s going through her own stripping and rebuilding.  Nice thing is that we’re handling this food restriction together.  Will be nice to slim down together.  She hasn’t had a headache in a week – for the first time in a long, long time.

So we’re learning as much as we can – so we can be a knowledgable source of support for our kids.  I really think this is all a part of our international green revolution:  sustainability, justice, spirituality — discovering our ownership and power.

February 18, 2008 Excitement

This was a very peculiar weekend.  I’ve written about some of it, about my asthma attack yesterday.  Well, I’m starting to learn about my own body and mind  and it has been a difficult, though ultimately rewarding, learning experience.  I used to pride myself on my unawareness, confusing it with a kind of macho – I’d make fun of Nancy because of her sensitivity, never realizing the price I’d paid for not being aware.

First – medication had always stopped my asthma.  Curing it naturally — it lasted through the next day and even today.  No fun.

My biggest insight was that I had put down curing asthma as a goal and that’s why I was doing this change in my regimen.  But I saw it was, “might as well try this” without believing it would work…  I wasn’t committed to my commitment.  I didn’t believe in my own goal (and I’m a coach!)…  That’s the source of cheating.

February 17, 2008 – Another Transformation

Yesterday I erote about Chuck E Cheese.  But after I got home I had an asthma attack.  I’ve written that I just started a homeopathic regimen.  This was my first test.  Changing my regimen has evidently removed the “protection” that years of medication provide.  Rather the accumulated medicines masked my body’s sensitivity, keeping the fundamental sickness hidden.

As I become more like a thorobred and less like a mutt, I become more aware of my body, quicker to react when something is amiss.  Anyhow, I responded to the asthma attack with my homeopathic remedy, rather than my asthma medication.  And I came out of it much faster than I would have.  I was very surprised and gratified.

I realize, thought, that my diet needs to be much healthier – I can’t afford to cheat any more.  When I took a stand for environmental sustainability, I didn’t realize I was talking about my own personal one, that the spiritual fulfillment would be my own, that the social justice was mine.